Loss of my beloved Abuela on 9.15.21
I haven’t been present on my social media accounts since something difficult has happened. On Wednesday, September 15, 2021, we lost the matriarch of our family, mi abuela. “Abu” “Mami Bruni”
I usually post even when things are difficult as I like to portray life as it is. The good, difficult and the extremely depressing as I know it brings encouragement and inspiration. However I just haven’t been able to express myself lately. I’m just going through the motions. I’m here but I’m not here if that makes any sense.
I’m seeing everyone family and friends come to pay their respects to the memory of mi abuela. I see the example she set made an impact on everyone. I am especially thankful for those who were there every day in her last years. It’s not about who is there at our best because that’s easy. But it’s who is there when things increasingly get difficult. It was hard for everyone to see her that way but for those who were there every day during the hard times - that’s special. That’s remarkable and impactful. The truth is she would’ve been there for any of us if it was any of us in her position she wouldn’t have left our side. That’s who she was. Generous, loving and giving - a mother to many.
Friday was a grueling 11 hours of grief 8:00 am-7:00 pm at the funeral home.
The reason for my sadness, this woman loved me like I came from her own womb as a mother not a grandmother. Her love was always with me and my love was always with her. This is the last chance to see her kiss her and love on her one last time and say goodbye for now.
Saturday we laid her to rest at the cemetery where she can now go in peace.
Romans 14:8
After much review of the scriptures, I have come to the conclusion that only God knows who has entered into the gates of Heaven. We can speculate and we can hope for the best, but God has the final say. God looks and sees the heart. While we can judge based off of actions - we will never know what God knows about each soul.
After everything is done, I feel better than before. She’s laid to rest, no longer in pain, no longer living a life bound to a bed unable to have the freedom to leave the room.
With this I have found peace. Thank you for all of the prayers.
